A Farming Predicament

Change takes time. It is not a process that will yield results overnight. The phrase ‘you reap what you sow’ is very applicable to change, and this is something that is not only unknown to many but also understandably hard to take on board.

Making a post about the duration of change comes with a mandatory reflection on modern life. You press the on switch, and do you wait? Perhaps a few moments, 10 minutes at the most, but the result is relatively instantaneous. From the noble light switch to the faithful microwave and of course, the ever present computer, our modern day livlyhoods are by no means slowing down.

When a student sits down  feeling frustrated about having not done their next homework that is due in, or not revised for the upcoming examination the thoughts of frustration may quickly set in. After searching and searching for a way to change the bad habits there and then, it is a real blow to realize that there is literally no way of fixing the mess that has been created in the now, the imminent catastrophe. This then leads to feelings of giving in, and the logic works something like this:

1. I am frustrated about my bad habits, I want to make a change.

2. I have actively searched for a way to change these habits, but found no quick fix that will help me right now.

3. If I cannot fix the situation right in front of me, I give up.

Going through the many stages of self development will inevitably land you at this ruck, at least once or twice, if not once every week. I for one always find that the more I try and make a difference to my habits the more I just end up at this stage, the unforgiving sucker punch that life seems to respond with just as we are about to make a difference to our lives.

Unfortunately, I cannot provide you with a definitive answer of how to beat this rather nasty problem as I too am a mere mortal in the realm of self development, and am therefore as constrained by the problem as you are, dear reader. However… the more I read my books and various internet articles the more knowledgable I become.

At this point, I’d like to pause and make note about a genuine experience itself as opposed to reading something – first hand versus second hand. Without delving to deep into this separate area, or keeping this post too long for that matter, it is important to keep in mind that one must experience something for them self to appreciate it over simply reading or hearing about something. An appropriate example of this would be a boy being told at a young age not to touch the cooker whilst Mummy is making food. “You will hurt yourself! You will cry! It would be a very  foolish thing to do!” may exclaim the mother, having burned herself before many times. The boy would listen to these warnings but inevitably one day he did indeed touch the fire and was mildly burned on his hand. The prophecy came true, and he cried, and it hurt, and he realized it was a foolish thing to do. His mother had been right all along, yet there was a difference between being told what would happen and actually experiences it for himself. Now that he had done, he would be very careful around hot surfaces in the future – he had learned his lesson.

Back on topic, the action that I have come to believe may hold the answer to getting past this hurdle is taking things one step, or one habit, at a time. I have infured this answer from www.zenhabits.com, so all credit goes to the fella who rights the incredibly interesting blog over there, but to summarize his advise on getting through this, instead of trying to tackle all your bad habits and issues at once, simply focus on one at a month or so at a time and once you are happy with the change move onto the next problem.

The problem is of course, this solution still doesn’t fix the problems that may have caused this state of mind in the first place, I’m talking about the homework due in, the report that needs to be finished, or the bill that needs paying. Unfortunately, it may indeed be a lost cause. Do not feel down hearted though, that is the pitfall. Instead, take a blow now but sow seeds of change for the future. Whatever it is you have to endure as a consequence, no matter how inconvienet or uncomfortable, you will endure and overcome it. The difference is what will be the case next time around, be it in a week, a month or a year away from now. Will you be in the same situation, stuck in the mud and desperatly trying to find a way out? Or will you have taken the foresight from you previous failing and built foundations for an improved future?

Alas, I cannot really be a judge on what you do or don’t end up doing for it would be rather hypocritical. I myself have yet to make the big step forward that I just mentioned, sowing the seeds for change in the future. The primary reason for me to write down these entries is really to get my words out and express what I am thinking in the hope that it will allow me to understand myself clearer. If I happen to help someone else in the same situation along the way, then it will make it even more worth it.

Super Obscure Computer Analogy (S.O.C.A)

“An old man said to his grandson, “Boy, I have two tigers caged within me. One is love and compassion. The other is fear and anger”. The young boy asked, “Which one will win, grandfather?” The old man replied, “The one I feed”.”

I’m going to try and go into depth with my feelings on the process of self development and personal change, at least covering a few of the areas, and in doing so I imagine that I will probably fail to create a easy to follow post. Be warned, although I will try and make things as clear as possible, unless you have shared the same experience as me it may be a little too much. Pre-apology, I suppose. Anyway, on wards as always…

In want of a better analogy, here is my take on the process, specifically the points at which you start to fully understand the concept of understanding change and how your attitude will adapt over your time spent developing ones self.

Imagine a freshly installed Windows 7 operating system. Everything is set to its defaults, and it is all ready to be customized and of course, above all else, used by a person. Now (this is where things get odd) imagine that someone, somewhere has a big plan. This plan is more of a picture really, but also could be reffered to as a plan (finished plan, that is). This plan contains a huge list of files, folders, settings and modifications for a Windows 7 operating system.

Still with me? Your doing well. Like I said, I would have liked a better analogy but this is the one that sprang to mind…

A user of the new Windows 7 system we created in our heads sits down and begins to use their computer. First of all they gingerly browse through some of the basic settings, tinkering the operating system to their liking and gradually working towards the more advanced utilities and options. This gives them a beginner understanding of what to expect from their new computer and makes them aware of some of the features that they would have otherwise just used instead of actively recognizing them as built in features.

Once everything that the user feels is configured properly, or at least they think everything is configured properly (they may not have been aware of some features!) they set off to actually use their computer. Now for time and readabilities sake I will fast forward a little here. They go off over many months using a computer like any normal person does, creating, saving and downloading documents, music and videos. Sending messages, playing games, uploading photos… the list could go on, but I guess you get the picture by now. Say for example the user started out with a directory like this:

C:/Program Files/Microsoft Default Programs

They now have a file structure something more along the lines of this:

C:/Program Files/Downloaded Game Shooter 2012 of Duty

C:/Program Files/Office Program Suite Deluxe Edition

C:/Program Files/Photo Editing Suite Gold Version

What I am trying to say is that the user now has a computer full of their past however many months usage, all the things they have done, downloaded and edited are all there. You could say, in fact, that it was not too un-similar to a huge list of files, folders, settings and modifications… a finished version of the aforementioned plan.

Ok, so there we have it, an analogy. It probably doesn’t mean much and that is one of the reasons I was ashamed of it and would have loved to have used another, but through a quick summary and explanation hopefully things will become more clear as to what I am trying to explain about self development and change. Oh, and before I do that I’d just like to clarify that the fella mentioned who was the owner of the ‘plan’ is not meant to be a reference to any greater being or deity, in-fact it wasn’t meant to insinuate anything religious or spiritual at all. Again, just a poor analogy…

Disregarding its weaknesses, lets get into what it all is meant to mean, or at least what it means to me. When one starts their journey towards self development and achieving a greater state of mind and body they are presented with a new platform that they may have not realized they have had before. This clear and un-used element of life which is referred to as a newly installed operating system but is really what most would call being in a state of self awareness.

Once people become self aware of the fact that they can actually govern their own habits and change them for the positive they may begin investigating the phenomena, checking out all the different ways that habits are formed and how they can combat them effectively – like learning the settings available to change on a ‘fresh’ computer. This is a secondary stage of becoming self aware.

Now begins the process itself of self development. The journey begins and changes start to happen and manifest. Patterns begin to build and influences are taken on board, such as motivation, inspiration but also things like achievements and failures.

As for the ‘plan’ part of the analogy… ok, its probably the most confusing/less thought out part, but it has its place. The person holding the original plan which is identical to the finished operating system is you, the person changing. With all your thoughts and expectations, dreams and hopes, you determine what your ‘system’ is going to end up like at the end it. I tried to tie this in with the idea that whatever you think, positively or negatively, that’s exactly what it is – how you decide to take a situation is how it will end up.

So there we have it folks. My weird little analogy on the process of self development. I hope you can take something away from it, and if not atleast I feel that I have managed to alleviate my personal understand by putting it all into words. Besides, it feels great to get a large article posted up, regardless of the fact that no-one may ever read it… ;)

Until next time…

Great excuse

And finally, the school managed to get around to unblocking Post Demise on the college network.

Ok, so it’s not a real excuse for not posting for so long but I think it is a pretty neat one. I am always pretty busy on weekends and spend almost all my week at school so now I have a lot more time to take care of things here.

Without further adieu, here’s to future posts and not giving up!

Motivation-in-a-can (M.I.C) – Post One

Life is often described as a roller coaster – it has its ups and downs, its thrills and scares. The same can be broadly applied to self development, perhaps even more so. One day you may feel on top of your changes and future direction, yet feel hopeless and trodden on the next. Overall, these down-days is what self development is all about, being proactive instead of reactive, taking the wheel and driving towards your own goals instead of simply being  a passenger reacting to wherever others mislead you to.

Let’s face it though, it ain’t so easy to get over those dips and downs. If it was, everyone would be successful! Unfortunately, that’s just not the case. However, there are ways to ease up the process of getting back up when life knocks you down, and for the purposes of making things interesting I’m going to coin them Motivation-in-a-can. Every now and then I plan on posting a quote, story and video that will help keep your ‘chin-up’ and mind focused when things seem as if the whole planet is only here to stop you from reaching your goals.

So, here we go folks. Motivation-in-a-can (M.I.C), post one.

Quote:

Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it’s always your choice.

Wayne Dyer

Story:
There was a story of a little girl named Liza who was suffering from a disease and needed blood from her five-year-old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister. I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying,

“Yes, I’ll do it if it will save Liza.”

As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheeks. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded. He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, “Will I start to die right away?” Being young, the boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give her all his blood.

Video:

Breaking the Ice

Holy sweet Lord of productivity! Let me explain…

It’s 2AM right now and I’m in bed, ready to pass out. Feeling great, though (won’t be the same story in the morrow, might I add)! It took a large coffee, but here I am in a tidy room with all my notes sorted and a huge chunk of my homework done.

Sounds pretty standard for most I guess, but for me it’s a landmark… Finally I’ve put a huge effort in without any real hesitation, instead I just knuckled down and got on with it – and boy does it feel good.

This isn’t the post I was looking for, but I think it’s an important one none the less.

Change – it isn’t just something that happens to other people!

Alas, goodnight my dearest reader. I wish you the best.

Real Life Experience Points

Like video games? Me too. Ok, so that doesn’t mean we have a huge amount in common, but it’s a start.

Ever since I discovered ‘Role Playing Games’, or for those more gaming savvy, RPG’s, I was hooked. I could spend my time doing mundane tasks for hours on end. In-fact, I wasn’t alone. Millions of people do the same thing every day four hours on end, from all over the world – World of Warcraft. There, I’ve said it. Now being the sensible reader I know you too be, I can see you asking a understandable question, why?It’s a fair interogative. Why would someone pay every month and put in countless hours into a system where (aside from all the graphics and such) is essential just doing repetitive tasks for a ‘virtual’ reward i.e, for nothing. Fine, it’s not exactly nothing. There’s the ego of being ‘better’ than others, taking out anger by killing virtual orcs, etc., but my point still remains.  Surely the players could find something more constructive to do?

My vision is as such. All these players, and everyone else in a similar situation switching their efforts from such a pretty un-constructive task to something that actually holds a true real world value. If the time spent getting ‘experience’ in such games was spent lifting weights in the Gym or putting an extra bit of effort into those essays, people would start to notice some huge changes in their lives, instead of just having to deal with the problems they currently have.

In hindsight, maybe this wasn’t the best topic to start my blog off with. It’s pretty controversial, and although I tried, I’m sure I’ve just offended hundreds of thousands, if not millions of readers. I didn’t mean too, honest! Honestly though, I am only saying this because I’ve been there. We can all relate, not just Warcraft players. Almost everyone of, us bar those few ‘enlightened’ individuals, could see vast improvements in our lives if we just focused our energies elsewhere.

So there it is folks. The pen has been lifted, the ink has been set and alas, the surface has been scratched.

I’d post something along the lines of “Go ahead, tell me what you think in the comments”, but I’m not completely new to this. You can’t trick me, WordPress. I know no-one is reading my posts…

Yet.